may17.2008

In recent news, today marks one of the most ironic days that I have experienced in a very, very long time. It has left me a tad bit bruised, a tad bit confused, and it made me want to write about it.

So anyways, I have been living by myself for about a week now. And trust me, it's no easy task. In fact, it's not even as enjoyable as one may assume it to be. Sure, having more freedom is great, but at the end of the day, you cannot escape the fact that for the next while, you are utterly alone. As you turn the lights off for another night's rest, you realize how empty the house is, how incredibly alone you are.

But I suppose I'm more or less used to it. Most of the time, there are things that keep my occupied - eating in front of the TV, spending most of my time in front of my computer, that sort of stuff. Music is a must, that's for sure.

Thankfully, after a long period of busy and stress, this weekend is Victoria Day long weekend. Tonight is just Saturday. There's still Sunday and Monday. Not to mention that my birthday's coming up (Tuesday May 20). Not too bad.

Funny though. My birthday's always been so casual. A lot of my friends like to take it seriously - go out for a night at a restaurant, that sort of thing. I can't remember doing that. Nor do I want to, really. Just need my friends there to chill, play some basketball, laugh a bit, it's all good. Remember Cummer? With Magic, Boaz, Scott, 40K, Mike, Kevin, all that good stuff.

I remember one time my mom bought me a deck of Magic Cards. That was epic. I was like damn - my mom bought me some of these. This is real special. Except some faggot stole it on like the first day. I replaced them with another, but it still hurt. It's not often my mom takes part in any of my hobbies. Needless to say, I bawled. Not balled - bawled. Haha.

Anyways, back to the present. I'm gonna be seventeen soon. Geez. It's been a while, hasn't it, Zimu. I don't even know how I feel. How am I any different than the person I was years ago? Do I like where I am? Sometimes I feel that I'm a very confused individual right now... Often, I would be very willing to go back in time and live the life I lived years ago.

. . .

So after a week of an utterly sloppy and messy lifestyle, it was time for some change. Thus I spent the better half of the day doing laundry, washing dishes, cleaning, that sort of stuff. I went out with Fiona for lunch, that was real nice.

Anyways, I was mowing the lawn today, when I noticed some colour on my dark-if-not-black driveway. What was this?

"You suck! -->"

With the arrow pointing straight at my house. You can guess how uneasy that made me feel. Sigh.

. . .

In other news, I have finally reached C- on iCCup. Not only that, but I joined a clan - Training Squad (tS(). Although I lost 0-2 to the clan leader, i 2-0'ed vs another C- in the clan, which made me feel pretty good.

In any case, that's about it for now...

Until next,

2imu